birthday rollercoaster

On July 24, 2011, my diary reads: Der schlimmste und beste Tag (The worst and best day) – ever.

One year later, on another rainy July morning, this manic spectrum of memories and emotions is still with me, but I’ve come to accept that the story of Q&L’s arrival [in short: days of excruciating pain from a twin-related kidney blockage, topped with 48 hours of induced labor in a desperate attempt to avoid a c-section (both boys had recently turned and were positioned perfectly…), only to finally give in, then think we were through it all but end up in a second emergency surgery two hours later, again in full consciousness – while R was left alone with his newborn sons, growing unsure if he would see me again – losing more than half of my blood, getting hooked up for transfusions and iron injections, and consequently not being able to hold/nurse/take care of my babies for the first couple of days] is part of our story. Which is otherwise a good one. Q&L stole my heart the moment their slimy little cheeks touched mine – and, most importantly, turned out to be the happiest, healthiest and toughest little guys I’ve ever met.

Twin year 1, with all its challenges, always referred to as ‘the hardest,’ was generally a blast. In retrospect, I’m not entirely sure how we made it through the first three months with R in Chicago and me in Berlin, even though I had the strongest imaginable partner-in-crime in my Mom who dedicated her summer to us, made sure I got some sleep during the boys’ crazy 3-hour-feeding intervals, and helped me become the Mama I wanted to be.

In comparison, months 4-8 seemed like a walk in the park – all four of us together, with amazing family support on this side of the pond, discovering our new city and making new friends with two chipper babies who ate and slept well – this phase immediately made us want another set. Which kind of paused in month 9 when Q&L got serious about moving – nonstop, always, immer, that is. Exhausting as hell, but: Watching them explore the world with all senses and without any reservations, seeing them develop, learn, imitate and interact, is the single best thing in my life.

Twin year 2 will bring even more mobility, language(s?), a working Mama, 2L Papa, at least one Berlin trip and uncountable firsts. I officially can’t wait.

Happy first birthday, mini men. I couldn’t love you more.
And happy first birthday, R. I told you I was the luckiest.

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8 thoughts on “birthday rollercoaster

  1. Hi Franzi
    Alles Gute wünsche ich den beiden!
    Du hast ja ein aufregendes Jahr hinter dir.
    Dank deiner Fotos kann man die Entwicklung der beiden Jungs gut mitverfolgen, es ist schön daran etwas teilzuhaben.
    Am 18.9. (laut Arzt) startet für mich ein aufregendes erstes Mamijahr. Mal sehen was ich dann nach dem ersten Jahr rückblickend schreiben kann.
    Ich wünsche dir und deinen Jungs einen schönen Start ins zweite Lebensjahr!
    LG Franzi

  2. Hey Franzi,
    auch von mir alles Gute an Euch Vier! Wie ich am Bild sehe wurden deine Zwerge – zwei Wochen nach meinem – auch im Westend geboren! Ich bin schon völlig überwältigt von der Erfahrung mit diesem einen Wesen; kann mir dein Jahr ehrlich gesagt kaum vorstellen 🙂
    lg nina

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